You can take the daughter out of the slaughterhouse, but you can’t take the slaughterhouse out of the daughter.
Be emotionally draining. Tell unattractive people that you hate them. Worship people you don’t know and make them loathe you. Grin just for the fun of it. Seize the moment. Familiarize yourself with the clouds. Challenge morons. Stare at other people’s bodies. Do it.